2004-02-07 - 8:37 a.m.
july 2 friday
"April is the cruellest month, breeding
Lilacs out of the dead land, mixing
Memory out of desire, stirring
Dull roots with spring rain.
Winter kept us warm, covering
Earth in a forgetful snow, feeding
A little life with dried tubers."
-T. S. Eliot, Waste Land, The
this evening after i was finished bieng the red headed step child kiddie academy likes to beat i went home. i sat in my grandmothers rocking chair and i watched spongebob. spongebob always makes you feel better. hes just so stupid. lol. while spongebob was pretending to be mermaidman my cell phone beeped. it was robbie! me and him decided to go to the scenic overlook.
we must of spent at least 2 hours in the car talking about everything. death, live, love, how sometimes even if your surrounded by people you feel alone, how your life didnt go down the path you truely wanted it to. wether or not we are happy.
i think even though i go to concerts, NYC broadway shows, interesting events, clubs, the shore, rocky horror. nothing compares to when its just you and a friend and pretty view. these are the times you will remember. cuz these are the times you are closest to the person you are with. you share secrets and you confide your fears and it strengthens your relationship. i hope these friendships i have never die. the people i know i care about deeply. i would never want to be in a happy situation or sad one and not have my old crew to call.
i dont know what i would do without them. i think that is why i hold on to some friendships i really shouldnt. like khan. he never really calls me and yet i still try. i am not certain as to why i even bother. i guess its because i have put so much effort into these friendships and they have lasted so long that seeing them go kinda...well...it blows. i dont know. just a little rambling on my part.
good night all
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