2004-20-03 - 8:25 a.m.
march 20 saturday
MOTHERS. always the bringer of bad news. it seems the yuppy he does my taxes called and said you aint getting back 1200 but only 700. oopppsss i made a mistake. you know what i wanted to do to that tax man? i wanted to rip out his still beating heart so i could show him how black it was before he died! i was kinda counting on that money. 300 of it was to go to my trip to new orleans next year. fuckin sucks
i was just in a foul mood so i went to Debs for a bit. josh and christophe were also there. i got to yell and rant and rave for a bit.
after that i went home mom was doing bills and all of a sudden just flipped her shit! she kept saying over and over i wanna die why wont rich take me. i just wanna be with rich! it was heart breaking. then she fell into the comotos state on the couch and i broke down crying. i called panila and told him that i couldnt go to see thrice. i needed to remain local. i was scared of what might happen and i didnt want to be too far away. i called him crying which was a bit embarrasing.
after that i stayed home and watched my mom lie there. then kellyann called and said you need to get out of there so i went to have dinner with her. in the middle of dinner grandma calls to yell at me because i left! mom was having another i wanna die fit and grandpa was upstaires because grandma would get too upset. i was like oh good grandma so send an 80 year old man to do it.
after dinner i went back to kellyanns house and grandma called again. i was like fine i will go home!
i get home and mom is asleep so i called D and met up with her and robbie at somerset diner.
i was telling them what was going on and robbie made me start to cry. lol. i said some pretty nasty things to him and when i apologized a bit later he said dont worry about it its what i wanted you to do. i was like what? he said its a therapy technique. dont know how i feel about that but i did leave the place feeling alot better.
THANKS GUYS FOR LISTENING!
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