2003-30-12 - 4:30 a.m.
dec 30 tuesday
we had the baby last night. she woke up at 2 for a feeding. then 3 for a diaper change. i have never seen a child shit as much as this one does. then she slept until 5. after that it was no more night night for persephone.
i would walk her up and down the hallway or around the kitchen and she would stare at everything. she tried to go for my breast once and i was like NO!!! WRONG BREAST!!! AM NOT LACTATING!
i tried to teach her to say ozzy and black sabbath. she would open her mouth and close it again and that was good enough for me. i told her she must be a hellraiser! i know she wont let me down.
persephone looks just like katie. i see none of joey in her. shes beautiful. stubborn like my sister already. if you try to give her her binky and she doesnt want it she will smack your hand away and her little head will shake no. and shes only a week and a half old!
during the day we left the baby with the mother and me, D, and katie went to run errands.
first we went to babies r us to price car seats. then to old navy so i could buy a shirt.
after that we went to the mall where i finally realized that almost everyone in oklahoma is god damned moron. they are all model like though. salon styled hair and shit. but stupid. we were in express for 45 mins because this lady forgot to give katie a gift reciept. so she had to void the transaction and she said too much money was put back onto katies gift card. wasnt so. there was never anything wrong with the amount put back on the card as we tried to explain to the lady but hey we were the stupid ones. i thought D was gunna fly over the counter and fuckin kill the girl. poor katie was hyped up on percaset and was tired and icky.
later on in the evening katie and joey were supposed to go out. katie went upstaires and me and D waited for them to leave. they never did. when i went upstaires katie was in a heap on the bed not looking all that well.
me and D finally got our first decent meal! bahama breeze was the name of the mecca restaurant. it had a nice atmosphere and the dinner was great! we even had drinks! our spirits were lifted some and we felt more alive.
we came home and at midnight just as we were settling in for the night joey comes down the staires asking us if we could go to walgreens for thera flu for katie. so up we got and not 5 mins later there came a knock upon the door then the ring of the door bell followed by another knock on the door. i almost fell backwards when joeys mother stepped threw the door. i was like does he really not trust us to get thera flu and take care of katie that he had to call his mother. so i went upstaires and katie said it wasnt like that and i believe her. the mother came upstaires apologized for over feeding the baby and went to sleep. so i am still not clear as to why she was there in the first place. but whatever.
i stayed upstaires awhile to make sure katie was ok and of course to look and hold the baby. i did that every chance i could!
i am worried about katie. she doesnt look well and she wont see a doctor.
when i would look at katie all i could think of was how much she had grown up. she never said anything bad about any member of the family and almost made me cry when she talked about dad and how he was such a good man. she has had some tough times and i hate that she lives so far away. i am glad i came to see her. i never realized i missed her until i saw her.
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